I've been thinking

I wanted to write about what has happened this week in my life and it's hard to put what I am feeling into words.
The week started out with the blessing of a new grandson on Tuesday and ended with the loss of my Mom on Saturday morning.
Such a roller coaster of emotions!

My Mom:
She was a very special lady. I know everyone's Mom is special. Mine, no less than any one elses.
She was the kind of person who never forgot to love.
She taught me that forgiveness is something you just do, not something you have to think about.
She never held a grudge and she never refused to help someone out.
She was always ready to listen, without judgement.
She was the lady with $2.00 in her pocket to last all week, but stops on the corner to give it to the man holding the "will work for food" sign because, "He needs it worse than I do."
She is the woman who is a terrible hurry but stops to put change in the pot for the bell-ringer at Christmas, because, "It's cold out here and they work so hard."
She is the one person who always understood that we were put on this earth to make someones elses life easier.
And in the end, she lost hers.
Mom had diabetes. She knew what she needed to do to take care of herself but she was too busy taking care of all those around her that she loved and never seemed to find the time or money to eat the right foods, get enough rest and take her medications right.
She ended up in the hospital the same day that Jayden was born with fluid in her abdominal cavity. She was in renal and liver failure. She was in so much pain. She could not lay on her back because she couldn't breath.
And yet, when I called her to see how she was feeling she would answer, "a little better" and ask about me, Geri and the new baby. She wanted to hear about Christian's latest antics and Alex's new word for the week. And never forgot to make sure I promised to tell Jerry that she loves him. She bragged about Aaron's hugs and how sweet and pretty Tish is and how sweet and precious Geri is.
No matter what, if Jerry told her I was fussing at him or being mean to him, she ALWAYS took his side.
She teased him terribly and he loved it.
Mom spent every moment of every day trying to keep peace in her world and make everyone happy. That was what made her happy.
Now, with her gone, I find myself wondering, who am I going to call when Christian takes his first steps and Jayden eats ice cream for the first time?
Who is going to laugh with me over Alex learning to say,"poo-poo"?
Mom, I loved you so very much and I am going to miss you more than I can say. You were an inspiration and a real role model for selflessness, compassion and forgiveness.
I will always remember the lessons you have taught me, the love you have shown to me and your funny, sometimes surprising, sense of humor.
The Lord has called you home to give you the rest and the peace that you were never quite able to acheive in this old world and I am so thankful that He did not allow you to suffer.
Rest Momma. You deserve it!